“You want to listen, you can’t hear; you want to speak, you are dumb; you want to call out, you cannot; you feel you are dying, dying; you want to run away. You piss with fear in your sleep.”
So I’ve been sleeping a little bit irregularly lately and I’ve been having some strange dreams because of that. The dreams feel like they’re real and they always end with me trying like hell to wake up but being unable to do so because I can’t move my limbs or open my eyes! Pretty strange and scary stuff. It’s like I’m a prisoner of my own body and I can’t do nothing about it. Hallucinations are a direct result of it and they’re scary but fascinating nonetheless. I’ve had this kind of dream (or extended hallucinations) before so I decided to google around for it. Pretty soon I stumbled on a phenomenon called ’sleep paralysis’ and it’s really interesting.
There’s people who write about it on their blogs and stuff, and ofcourse there’s a wikipedia article on it which was an eye-opener for me. It seems it’s closely related to lucid dreaming (another interesting kind of dream I’ve had before), out-of-body experiences and even alien abductions (which you can read about on this excellent page). Basically life makes a little more sense now.
I’ve looked around for some (popular) scientific writings on this subject and I’ve found a few, like ‘The Terror That Comes In The Night‘ by David Hufford and ‘Wrestling With Ghosts‘ by Jorge Conesa, excellent stuff if you’re into horror movies; there’s lots of scary folklore going round about it.
So if you’ve ever had the terrifying feeling that you can’t move your limbs or open your eyes, don’t sweat it. Although some people get it a little too often, it’s perfectly natural, a slight brain glitch which does no harm except scare the shit out of ya. Nothing supernatural or mystical about it, although a lot of people (used to) think so. I think it’s another interesting layer of reality which needs to be explored more; this specific area of research is still pretty young.
It might even be a nifty gateway to some serious lucid dream explorations… Wooo…